Hey everyone, it’s time again for another blog post (I must admit I’m feeling pretty proud of myself for fitting two posts in this week for the first time in ages!) and this time I thought I would write about something which I’m actually fairly ashamed to say is on my mind most of the time!
Needless to say, following my holiday and a wisdom tooth extraction I feel like I’ve put on a few pounds and gained back inches which I worked so hard to lose in the first place. As much as it is frustrating I also feel like it is a huge knock to my body confidence which I was working so hard to build.
Even more frustrating though is that I feel like it is something I think about all the time. Whether it is worrying about whether an outfit I am wearing is flattering, to comparing myself to other girls, I feel that I am holding myself to potentially unobtainable standards, which cannot be good for anyone!
So basically this post is here to lay it all on the line and let you all know that despite the bubbly and outgoing exterior and multiple post on my social media channels detailing every aspect of my life, particularly how I look, I am extremely self-conscious. I always have been and assume that I always will be. But life is too short to worry about it all the time so I am going to make a very real effort to not worry and to embrace my appearance. So what if my arms aren’t as thin as other peoples or if my tummy isn’t as flat, there are a million other things which I have going for me and I should value myself higher than that.
It’s hard though, living in a world of photoshopped images which aren’t clearly labelled and “standard sizes” in stores often being size 6! It’s a constant barrage of noise telling you that you should look different (better?) than you do currently. And if it is affecting me, a pretty together twenty something, then what on earth is it doing to the teens of today who see “perfect” bodies everywhere. Yes there is the #curvee revolution, but is that really an attainable and healthy ideal? What I want is more diversity, in the campaigns we see from fashion retailers. I want to see a group of women which represent me and my friends in the clothes they are selling.
Phew…rant over! I really just wanted to give you a snapshot of how I feel on a “fat day” and the constant worries that I have every time I pick out an outfit! As much as it sounds pretty bad, I wanted to let all of you out there know that you are not the only one feeling that way, so please don’t worry or feel down, and instead of seeing all the negatives and focussing your attentions solely on them, look for the positives instead!
For me, I’m going to continue to go to the gym and eat healthily purely because it makes me feel healthy and energetic and if a by-product of this healthier lifestyle is losing a couple of pounds and inches then good!
I’m going to make sure to include how I am feeling in my future fitness and nutrition posts to stick to my plan for more confidence and less concern!
I hope you found this post helpful! I’d love to know if you have similar thoughts or feelings and if so what you do to get over them! Please let me know in the comments as I always love to hear from you 🙂 As always please like, share, comment and subscribe and stay tuned for the next post!
Lots of love, Leanne xx